kungfumoose

Hello.
It's 4:00am, and I am awake.....I don't want to be, but I guess it's okay.
I'll be going back to bed soon, I hope.
I just paid all our bills, and it is very satisfying. (YAY!!)

I have a funny story, yesterday, my husband and I were at Taco Bell (Yes, I know, horrible for my diet, but I did it, and now I can't change it) I was standing in line, and all these high school students were around, because the high school is around the corner, and school just let out.
This girl, who I have never seen before, comes up to me, and says "Can I borrow a dollar?" I was thinking "borrow"? I don't know you! I said "do you mean HAVE a dollar?" her friend turns to me and says, "wait, are you an adult?" I said "well, yeah, I'm, almost 25" So the friend smacks the girl on her arm and says "you asked an ADULT to borrow a dollar!?" so the girl turns to me and sys, "well, can I borrow a dollar?" I was uncomfortable at this point, and said that I only had the $2 that I was going to spend on my food. (I had another $20 bill, but I sure as heck wasn't going to give her that!) anyway her friend hits her again, and says "You don't ask an adult for money!!! What are you thikning!?" and drags her away, the whole while I am thinking, wow, that was weird.

anyhow, I need to go to sleep, I am exausted.

I'll try and write again soon.

~Moose

Current Mood: So tired, I can barely breathe
Current Music: none

Hello
I had a really full day.
I learned a new bo Kata, and I cleaned like crazy, and I did a bunch with my Home-based business.
wow.....that seems so lame in writing.
It was a really full day though.
I got a lot done.
I am so freakin' tired!
My husband came home from work roday and was very grumpy because some yayhoo, was an idiot, adn rude to him, and since the idiot had more rank, My dear husband could not say anything.
People are soo stupid.

My husband and I bought these amazing paintings the other day, they are gorgeous.
We now have 5 paintings by this artist, she is really amazing, hey, maybe she'll be famous some day, adn we will become millionaires form the $200 we spent on her beutiful art. (I can dream can't I?)

I went to a pampered chef party the other day, actually my husband came too, he said it was a "estrogen fest" (he was the only man there!)
Poor guy. I will try not to put him through that again. It must have been traumatic......anyhow.....

Hey, I have new music suggestion.
There is a group called "Secret Garden" It's really cool, it's this Norwegian guy who writes music, and he has an Irish Violinist who plays some of it, so it's this really cool norway/ireland music mix.
It's soft, and has a lot of celtic feel to it.
well, I'd better go sleep.

I wake up at 3:30am every morning my husband works, we get to sleep in on his days off.
sadly, my idea of "sleeping in" is waking up at 5:00am......tragic isn't it?

okay bye now,

Moose

Current Mood: Overworked
Current Music: Secret Garden

okay,so my life is still "oh so boring"
but at least my guy is at home where he ought to be.

I went to pampered chef party tonight, it was fun, and the food was great.
I brought my husband, and he won one of the door prizes.....he got a knife, go figure (guys!)

anyhow, I am feeling soooo much better!!
I think i am finally well!!! YAY!!

If you haven't heard of "12 Girls Band" you soooo have to check it out!!!! It's the coolest music ever!!
They are 12 (well, actually 13...it's a long story) girls from China, who play traditional chinese instraments, they have rocked up Chinese music, and they even did this way cool cover of "Clocks" by coldplay. Imagine, Clocks played on traditional Chinese instraments......it is sooo freakin' cool!!!
They even do this one song from Riverdance, and it is to die for....it's amazing how well it works I never relised the similarities between Irish & Chinese Traditional music until now.

anyhow, I have totally been asimilated by "Classical Crossover" I have an entire list of "must have" CDs, and I will gladly share it with you anytime.....in fact I might post it later, just because I want to!!

anyway, I should go....you know....do something boring.....or I know.....I could procrastinate, that's always fun!!

~Moose

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: "Reel Aroud The Sun" from Riverdance by12 Girls Band

I don't have a lot to say....or update, life is life.

I didn't do anythign today except sit in front of the computer screen the whole day. (check out breakthechain.org it's pretty cool)
The day was rather boring actually.

I was going to do a lot of stuff, but I never did.
hmmm...
at least I am doing better than I was yesterday. I got a migraine really bad in the evening, and I was thinking, gee, I finally get better, and I get pain......and nuasea, don't forget that nausea thing. I could handle migraines if it weren't for the nausea (eek!)

I took it easy today because I didn't want to feel crummy again (at least that's what I tell myself...)

My husband has the weekend off, (yay!) I can have a raltive amount of fun I guess.

I'll write again whenI have something pertinent to say.

~Moose

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: None

Okay, I tried to post yesterday, and I had this huge long post, and just as I was about to post it....the power went out. I am sooo not kidding!! Totally annoying!

anyhow, I have decided that it would be too painful to retype it, so I'm skipping that one, and just starting with today.

Okay, Today....I'M FEELING BETTER!!!! YAY!!!

I'm still sick, but I'm actually cleaing my house.
My husband is at a post today where I can go to, so I made him Macaroni & Tomato soup.
When he saw it, he said that he had just talked to some of his co-workers and he was saying that his wife made really good home-cooked meals, especially her macaroni & Tomato soup.

Wow.....it made my day!!! He told co-workers that he liked my cooking!!! I feel so domestic all of the sudden!
I never thought I was that good of a cook, and so I avoided it, but him saying that just made me all warm and fuzzy inside, and now I feel like I want to cook, and even try some new recipes. I want to clean the house, and buy groceries (I hate shopping!) and vacuum, and do dishes, and actually fold the laundery (I haven't done that in almost a month!) and be a housewife.
Sadly although I feel like I want to do these things, I can really only pick up the floors a little, and then take a rest, because I am still sick.
I think I should tell my husband how much he made my day!! yes...definately!

Oh, it was so funny, becasue the other day I called my mom and said "Hey Mom, I just found out that today is 'Respect for the Elderly Day' in Japan, and I wanted to let you to know that I respect you" My youngest brother was on the other line, and I thought he was ging to pee his pants laughing. My mom was so shocked, she was speechless for a few seconds. It was hysterical!!

I am trying to learn Japanese, and it's really kind of fun, but really difficult at the same time.
I hope that I will be able to stay here for another 3 years, because I love it here so much, and also it will take at least a year to learn enough Japanese to actually be able to have coherent conversations, and if I put all this effort in, I want to be able to actually use it!!

I found out recently that at the end of the year I am testing for black belt in Kobudo (weapons martials arts) I am also testing for my first black belt in Gojuryu (Karate) this next spring. I am really excited, it's been 2 years of study, and I am very proud of what I have learned, and all the effort I have put in.

Well, I had better post this before the power goes out again. I should be writing again soon.

~Moose

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: "Ano Natsu No Hanabi" by Dreams Come True

well, my husband has been home for 3 weeks. (yay...so happy!!)
He's back at work now, and I get to go back to doing.....whatever.
Yikes I feel crummy. I'm so sick...I hate this.

I've been sick for almost 2 weeks. The whole time that my husband had off work...(go figure)
It started as a sore throat, and now finally I woke up this morning with this horrible pressure in my chest.
knowing me, I'll probably be talented enough to get pneumonia in the dead of summer in Okinawa.
Yuck......I wanna go curl up and just......something......I know....I want to curl up and become unconcious until I'm better. That would be nice.

I've been working on some graphics projects, and I'm having a lot of fun with it. Unfortunately I can't afford the software that would let me do the things that my creativity wants to do. *cries*
I really want to get Adobe Premiere Pro, so I can make little movies out of my fabulous photos. (I am a rather decent photographer if I do say so myself!!)

I was going to do some work on my HBB (home-based business) today.....but I feel so icky...I don't think I will.
*cough* *hack* *sneeze*
Excuse me.....*blows nose loudly*

I think I'll go cough up a lung or two.......*shuffles into the bedroom with a box of kleenex*

~Moose

Current Mood: sick

I'm so anxious I can barely breathe. I am supposed to leave and go pick him up in about 10 or 15 minutes, and the wait is killing me.

I can hardly beleive that it has already been almost 7 months.
I've been oddly detached from him emotionally over the last month ro so.....like I finally reached my limit, and became unable to miss him any longer. I think it's a survival mechanism. Something to prevent dying of separation from the one you love.

I have barely slept or eaten in the last 3 days (I did lose 2 lbs!!) I am just too messed up inside, and my emotions always come out in my digestive system.

I have my whole house spotless, (although I suspect mold, or dust is in here, because for the last week, I've been sneezing like crazy) and everything in organized and waiting for the return of my dear husband.
I even expanded my "Lord of the Rings" wall. it's now twice as big. I just did that today. I think it looks pretty good. I hope my hubby doesn't think it's too over the top....he might want it changed, adn I have gotten rather attached to it.

I finally got a picture of My guy and his bike to stay on the wall, it's been jumping off the wall for months now....every week or so I had to replace the tape, and put it up again.

I am soooooo freaking nervous!!!! well, maybe not nervous....but anxious. I mean i have nothign to fear...it's my husband, but I feel all this pent up excitement, and it's starting to really get to me.
All my muscles hurt, and I really think I am going to throw up.

I LOVE MY HUSBAND!!!

well, it is time.....I should go......(YAY!!!)

~Moose

Current Mood: Crazy Anxious!
Current Music: None

Okay Loki,
you got your way.
I'm writing again.
I am really hyper because My husband comes home this week!!!

I love him soo much!!!

I don't have a lot to say right now, but i plan on writing in this thing a lot more from now on.


~Moose

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: None

Okay, so today has been a truly inspired day, I've been cleaning like crazy.
I suddenly realised after starting to do the dishes, that I really don't have that many diahes, so it's not going to take anywhere near as long as I thougth it was! (yay!)

I think I'm going to scrub all the floors in the house too. they are really icky, adn they need it very badly. I got one of those "swiffer" mops, but it just sprays cleaner on the floor, and then wipes it up, so you never really have a rinsed floor, it's always got the cleaner on it, and after a couple of weeks, you get this sticky film on the floor, adn it attracks dirt like a magnet. I usually spray all the floor with water and then wipe it up, but i haven't in so long, so my floors are pretty disgusting!!

eek!!

Well, I had better go and get my dishes done (I was taking a root beer break so my hands could dry out a little)

~Moose

Current Mood: productive
Current Music: Sangoshou 2

I just got home from snorkeling!!!
It was awesome!!!!
I saw all these beautifuly colored fish, and the coral was awesome!! there was even purple and blue coral, and some bright orange. It was definately something for the scrapbook. I fully intend to go often, and I hope that I can take scuba diving lessons. that would be awesome!!!

I have exercised so much today...actually....that's all I've done so far. I got up, went walking, went to karate, and then I went snorkeling (that counts as swimming) wow. what a day......yay!!!

I feel good, and I feel healthy, but I do feel hungry. I'm gonna go eat something yummy.......

~Moose

Current Mood: happy

Well, I went to church yesterday, and I had fit into a rather small skirt (not short, just a small size) and I felt great! It was black and had a great slimming effect. I felt wondeful, everybody was commenting on how good I looked in that dress. This one girl came up to me, and said "that top is so slimming on you!" I said, "it's not the top, I lost 20 lbs!"

It was fun I knew that even the people who didn't say anything, were thinking about how good I looked. I felt really good.

I still have a long way to go, but I feel strong, and secure in the fact that I am in this being healthy trend for the long run. I'm gonna be sooo skinny. I'll end up weighing 50 lbs less than my wedding day when I am through. I feel good physically, and mentally. It's a good feeling.

I also felt good about what I have been doing with my house. I am doing so much in my life right now, and I feel really good about how things are going.

I miss my husband terribly, but I know that things will be alright.

I'm about to go out for my morning walk, adn then I will be going to karate.
gotta go.....

~Moose

Current Mood: cheerful

Okay, so you may think that I am crazy, but i have been watching Japanese TV lately. right now I am watching "Bob the builder" in japanese.

earlier today i saw Spiderman on TV. I saw "The Mask" a while ago too. it's kind of weird, but really cool. I'm starting to understand the language more. especially children's programs, because they talk slower, more carefully, adn they repeat things 2 or 3 times. I learned how to say "circle" and "dig" in japanese after only 45 minutes of TV. cool huh?

I love learning the language. I am going to try and go to school when Dustin gets back. I want to get AA in "Japanese Studies" (langugae, culture, history, and such) It would be sooo cool!!!

oh, I guess it was only an excerpt of BTB because it's a different TV program now. but it's the kids TV, and it's really cute.

~Moose

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Bob the builder Theme (in Japanese)

I went to a baptism this morning. The boy was baptised in the East China sea. It was beautiful, rained though. then me and another lady from church, went out and waded around in the water, and her sons caught blowfish, and we splashed around in the water in our dresses, it was great.

I am going to go snorkeling with her sometime. I had fun. I just got back, through out my sandals, and disinfected my feet/ I had to get "nature" off of me........eeewww!!!

anyway, the day is shaping up wonderfully, and I am feeling good. (yay)

~Moose

Current Mood: cheerful

well, I didn't get anything done yesterday. I just watched TV and surfed the net. I really meant to work n the house, it just didn't happen. (sigh) well, I guess I did do my VT, and I ran errands, and I bought groceries (finally) and I tought english, (and studied Japanese) but housewise, I did nothing. (well, I probably did some things to make it worse)

Today was a good day. I keep hoping Dustin will call. I fit into my size 16 jeans (yay) I am writing in my LJ so I can procrastinate my house cleaning even longer. (sigh...what am I going to do with myself)
I didn't get any mail *cries* but I hope I'll get some later this week. I am still waiting for more posters. I got some of them yesterday.

I did my karate and then I went out with the wives from the squadron, it was really fun. I'm really glad that I had a chance to go out with them. I was in the middle of the table, and had the opportunity to talk to a lot of different people.

Life is looking up. I have often wondered if I have bipolar, becasue I have really happy times for about 6 months, adn then sad for 6 months. maybe I'm just normal......wouldn't that be a thought?


~Moose

Current Mood: procrastinated
Current Music: sound of the AC

I am having a tough evening emotionaly.
I just had an absolutley great time with a bunch of other military wives. It was wonderful.....but aweful at the same time. I had to leave a little early because I felt like I was being too overpowering, and that I was....I don't know, I was just way insecure, I felt like i wasn't liked, but i know that there was no logical reason except that I have a difficult time in social places in groups. give me a person one on one, and I will become their best friend, but put me in a group, and I feel like a fish out of water. ironically, speaking of fish out of water, we were painting dead fish. yes, you read that right, dead fish. eek!! I am a little germaphobic, and I actually made it through.

have I mentioned that I am obsessive-complusive? I recently discovered that is why I have these weird tapping things that I do, and I do these weird counting things. I never knew before, but i realise that I have all the symptoms of OCD. anyway, I am not really bad about it, I have it under control, and I live life relativley normally. I just get freaked out in caves, and when handling dead fish. (eek!!)

I just have to realise that I am a seriously messed up person. (sigh) :( I wish I were normal sometimes, because I hate having to deal with all my problems. I guess I just had a bad childhood (Loki, you know what I am talking about, things that you and I have in common, that messed u sboth up a little) and it is taking a lot to have a healthy life emotionally speaking.

I miss my husband so much. He is my life giving life, he is my heart and my soul, and I miss him soo much.
I am very proud of him, and I am proud to be able to serve our country by supporting a servicemember emotionally, and domestically. It's a good feeling to feel like I have actually acomplished something.

I know those women liked me, I guess I just felt like they shouldn't, like I wasn't worth being liked, or I was to weird to be accepted, I don't know, I just have to get rid of these feelings. one of the women actually said she was looking forward to seeing me at the park on friday. it scared me. I want to be accepted so badly, but it terrifies me. that's why I had to knwo my husband for 7 years before we got married, I was too afriad of him liking me, and I needed time to accept it. I guess God knew that.

well, I'd better get get to work on my house.

~Moose

Current Mood: insecure
Current Music: none-I'm too emotionally upset to listen

I finally finished sorting the backroom!!!!!!
*big sigh of contentment*
well, I still have a whole lot more to do, but since I finished the really big part, I just have all the little bits and pieces to finish, although admittedly there are a LOT of little bits and pieces left.
I now have to organize the sorted bins and piles into a somewhat orderly fashion. When I'm through with that I have to go around the rest of the house, and all the things that I've been meaning to sort (I have little piles, and boxes in each room) need to to be taken to the backroom and sorted into there little spots. Then when that is finally complete, I can find homes for each box/pile (catagory) and put them away. There are a few boxes, that I need to sort further, and a few things that need to be broken down into even more catogories, but after that, I can finish tidying the rest of the house, and then I get to decorate!!!

I think I can be done except by the end of the week, so next week gets devoted to decorating!!!!!

I am really excited. I think I can be done before the end of the month!!!!!

when my house is done, I am going to spend more time being a photographer, and I am going to try and volunteer for a lot of things, and get more involved with my community.
then, if I am still doing well, I am going to try and get a job.

Life is good right now.
life is really good.

~Moose

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Kitaro (and lots of it)

Well, today has been interesting.
Yesterday nothing much happened.
I went walking, it rained.
I watched Karate Kid 2, and laughed about how much they got wrong.
I worked on the backroom more, and found an envelope with $60 in it!!! (yay!!)
I ate fish.
I watched a japanese soap opera.(In japanese)

Today I found out that Dustin got part of his deployment money.
He got $2,500 (heart attack, joy, happiness, gonna faint......) I now have just enough to pay off all of our debt. I am going to wait until I have saved up another $500 or so, because then I will be able to have something in savings for emergencies. (I already saved up $2000, our debt is about $4000)

actually, now that I think about it, I want to get our debt paid off, and completely gone. I need to do it today though. I have to make $4000 descision on my own. gosh....I am not sure what to do.

anyway, I guess other than that, I am doing well. I'll update more later as the day progresses.

~Moose

Current Mood: chipper

YAY!!!!!! I'm down to 201.5lbs!!!!!!!!!

I'm so happy!!!!!! I've lost 20lbs since Dustin left!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!

*dances around the room, showing off skinnier body*
I'm sooo happy!!!
YAY!!!! HAPPPYFULNESS!!!!!!

~Moose

Current Mood: ecstatic

I've been studying japenese. It is a beautiful language. today I watched "the Mask" starring Jim Carrey, but I watched it in Japanese. It was interesting, i didn't understand much, but it was interesting to hear it in another language.

I think i am going to buy a very expensive Japanese computer program that will help me learn it better. It's gonna be $350 though. I never thought I would pay that much, but if I wanted to take a colleg class it would cost a whole lot more. It would be $450 per term. (yikes!)

It rained today. It's been a weird day. Tommorow they are going to scramble the cable channels, and I won't get them anymore. (at least I still get the japanese channels)

I can't sleep again. I mean, i am really tired, but I just can't seem to fall asleep. I don't know what's wrong with me.

My eyes are getting all bloodshot form looking at a computer screen, I think I might being going crazy.

~Moose

Current Mood: blah

haven't felt very good today.
I couldn't sleep last night, I didn't get to bed until 2:00AM then my husband called at 7:00 AM Chruch was at 8:30, and I was so tired I didn't think that I was safe to drive, so I skipped church.
It's funny, I have been happy and healthy for the last few weeks, but then I got an infection in my toe. I went to the doctor who gave me antibiotics.....really strong antibiotics, (because I had warning signs of blood poisoning) anyway after 1 day and a half of being on the mondo super extreme antibiotics.....I start to feel icky. I have a cough, and a runny nose, and I just don't feel good. Stupid virus......antibiotics don't help get rid of those.

anyway, I still haven't done anything else in the house, I'm such a huge procrastinator.
(sigh) anyway, I guess I had better go now, I have more procrastinating to do.


~Moose